第1043章 活着（1/2）

<d118,9504><s48,6452>，</s><s0,9320>以</s><s80,4692>，</s><s0,6240>最</s><s64,1740>答</s><s0,1316>欢</s><s64,4016>尔</s><s76,5100>只</s><s0,8956>不</s><s0,1232>自</s><s32,5832>，</s><s32,3832>用</s><s32,4384>这</s><s16,5100>办</s><s75,3128>名</s><s96,5044>生</s><s96,5664>不</s><s96,6608>默</s><s16,4088>眼</s><s32,6016>除</s><s16,992>着</s><s80,9236>上</s><s16,1288>是</s><s80,5804>样</s><s96,5424>但</s><s64,2944>愣</s><s64,3916>下</s><s64,7216>过</s><s32,6480>软</s><s64,7484>登</s><s80,7160>是</s><s0,496>侧</s><s0,2532>，</s><s32,9448>实</s><s32,3352>世</s><s16,8360>　</s><s96,3296>，</s><s0,6948>　</s><s16,6720>我</s><s48,496>在</s><s32,9068>才</s><s96,8092>，</s><s16,2036>你</s><s0,4692>也</s><s96,1400>日</s><s0,1020>的</s><s0,6976>语</s><s80,9292>，</s><s32,4116>悲</s><s32,7344>要</s><s96,3832>珍</s><s80,8460>世</s><s80,2504>这</s><s0,7936>却</s><s0,1740>，</s><s88,3044>”</s><s48,4440>菲</s><s80,3536>真</s><s0,6340>看</s><s0,9264>活</s><s64,8036>尔</s><s96,5452>悔</s><s96,964>，</s><s46,8600>…</s><s16,8316>。</s><s96,1316>：</s><s48,7640>尔</s><s16,8260>了</s><s32,5240>是</s><s0,156>

</s><s80,4088>露</s><s96,6016>斯</s><s64,9208>虽</s><s0,6792>　</s><s16,340>子</s><s64,836>是</s><s96,3268>女</s><s96,8800>，</s><s64,5184>没</s><s0,4016>看</s><s96,2588>在</s><s96,2348>伤</s><s32,6664>选</s><s48,7484>刻</s><s32,2264>道</s><s16,9236>广</s><s92,8288>着</s><s48,6212>脏</s><s16,6128>亡</s><s80,1372>？</s><s0,3464>我</s><s0,6848>面</s><s48,9012>有</s><s96,8828>异</s><s0,7372>为</s><s0,340>桌</s><s32,1020>了</s><s16,4524>个</s><s32,2560>知</s><s80,5396>活</s><s80,4016>。</s><s0,3044>

</s><s32,2900>的</s><s64,9124>心</s><s64,468>分</s><s0,4496>我</s><s0,5916>。</s><s80,7880>隐</s><s0,8644>

</s><s32,7852>思</s><s0,3960>　</s><s16,6212>传</s><s32,8288>…</s><s32,6312></s><s48,1952>才</s><s80,1740>冷</s><s96,6664>飞</s><s64,1584>，</s><s80,1868>看</s><s80,3732>溺</s><s16,5720>至</s><s41,6748>开</s><s0,9040>凤</s><s48,1528>自</s><s32,9124>没</s><s32,6536>支</s><s18,7668>y</s><s80,1076>看</s><s0,4356>里</s><s0,7104>　</s><s32,496>，</s><s80,8772></s><s64,6636>，</s><s0,3268>就</s><s0,964>易</s><s16,1924>是</s><s40,5368>菲</s><s0,3436>上</s><s105,6720>a</s><s96,9040>是</s><s0,3832>能</s><s32,5888>日</s><s0,8260>来</s><s104,9392>”</s><s80,9180>实</s><s16,4440>当</s><s16,2972>，</s><s64,3464>来</s><s0,1640>后</s><s80,2432>不</s><s64,3380>词</s><s80,4440>克</s><s64,9320>可</s><s48,4144>在</s><s16,3436>，</s><s64,8928>鸟</s><s80,1712>假</s><s64,6044>耗</s><s80,6212>…</s><s0,5988>，</s><s64,84>说</s><s80,1896>，</s><s96,5832>柯</s><s96,3464>爱</s><s32,1740>以</s><s16,6636>一</s><s40,3044>是</s><s32,5128>菲</s><s32,4256>。</s><s0,2588>为</s><s32,5720>不</s><s64,9236>义</s><s40,936>你</s><s48,5100>…</s><s40,7004>我</s><s0,284>

</s><s0,9236>是</s><s32,8232>就</s><s57,6128>a</s><s32,8388>栗</s><s64,3620>的</s><s16,8432>　</s><s32,6876>，</s><s16,1148>　</s><s96,5296>科</s><s64,5748>不</s><s48,5860>F</s><s0,6876>些</s><s48,6820>了</s><s48,5664>，</s><s0,764>的</s><s0,7640>是</s><s48,5536>带</s><s64,2108>牌</s><s96,2136>头</s><s32,5960>“</s><s81,2264>a</s><s0,3044>　</s><s96,1896>似</s><s41,5564>…</s><s0,2660>　</s><s32,7512>表</s><s104,936>”</s><s80,1148>了</s><s32,7288>她</s><s16,7004>“</s><s32,936>“</s><s48,6480>肋</s><s80,440>着</s><s32,5184>已</s><s80,4300>挥</s><s0,8984>，</s><s64,3324>良</s><s48,1500>这</s><s48,1232>身</s><s48,1148>语</s><s32,9236>泛</s><s16,9124>也</s><s0,2800>。</s><s32,4356>人</s><s96,552>椅</s><s48,2872>“</s><s16,5960>　</s><s32,6848>易</s><s48,2660>语</s><s48,3324>善</s><s48,5508>下</s><s64,2036>亲</s><s32,1288>任</s><s48,2532>了</s><s32,3676>女</s><s16,1048>“</s><s48,3268>个</s><s16,3128>F</s><s80,6608>沉</s><s32,8360></s><s16,7484>够</s><s80,6692>了</s><s48,6720>能</s><s64,5324>”</s><s0,2320>，</s><s64,2772>交</s><s46,2460>…</s><s16,5832>着</s><s80,4608>主</s><s16,4116>抹</s><s96,4748>的</s><s56,5016>是</s><s96,5396>了</s><s64,5804>这</s><s16,5888>生</s><s32,6564>”</s><s64,1260>和</s><s64,4636>了</s><s16,2376>，</s><s32,1980>妈</s><s96,3352>有</s><s16,5776>将</s><s16,112>“</s><s16,1712>这</s><s72,5016>，</s><s0,7288>　</s><s64,8800>惧</s><s48,836>样</s><s0,6948>

</s><s0,792>奇</s><s48,7316>色</s><s0,1400>不</s><s0,2972>下</s><s96,7188>么</s><s32,9180>他</s><s48,992>语</s><s32,8460>她</s><s56,1768>前</s><s80,4960>么</s><s0,4412></s><s32,1400>才</s><s64,864>圄</s><s80,5128>斯</s><s0,1712>欢</s><s7,0>但</s><s0,9012>是</s><s80,3804>算</s><s96,6396>做</s><s32,5368>“</s><s48,4228>相</s><s80,6016>克</s><s32,7696>我</s><s80,5720>意</s><s80,8232>活</s><s64,9420>说</s><s32,6368>…</s><s96,4608>，</s><s0,2208>

</s><s32,3408>放</s><s80,7188>怎</s><s25,6748>离</s><s96,4300>手</s><s32,2432>用</s><s48,2404>究</s><s16,5916>“</s><s80,3408>的</s><s80,3960>有</s><s48,3832>生</s><s48,6424>，</s><s48,5156>了</s><s66,5860>y</s><s48,1020>，</s><s0,5748>受</s><s32,3564>为</s><s80,4356>退</s><s59,3128>个</s><s48,4524>蠢</s><s0,6636>了</s><s96,2900>”</s><s48,3620>界</s><s80,6240>十</s><s96,9292>可</s><s64,7964>所</s><s0,8744>

</s><s96,5508>孩</s><s48,8772>实</s><s48,8260>可</s><s32,396>染</s><s32,5100>法</s><s0,5296>，</s><s32,892>人</s><s48,368>逐</s><s0,936>　</s><s32,6100>睹</s><s32,1640>种</s><s32,4720>在</s><s16,3072>尔</s><s48,3240>来</s><s64,3888>在</s><s57,6748>我</s><s64,5832>后</s><s48,8856>了</s><s0,4776>外</s><s0,4300>

</s><s80,2716>贪</s><s64,8672>他</s><s48,9208>，</s><s0,2744>手</s><s48,9152>肉</s><s0,2460>的</s><s48,7188>知</s><s80,4664>与</s><s16,864>生</s><s48,5128>尼</s><s80,1952>：</s><s80,552>在</s><s16,5508>刚</s><s48,2108>情</s><s0,1076>，</s><s0,440>

</s><s96,3804>是</s><s48,8232>可</s><s64,5888>去</s><s48,6608>莎</s><s64,440>看</s><s32,864>死</s><s16,8388>而</s><s80,8984>不</s><s32,2504>她</s><s32,7584>的</s><s66,3676>y</s><s0,6268>。</s><s16,1952>会</s><s16,6848>对</s><s64,6664>，</s><s80,5156>尼</s><s32,5480>机</s><s0,2716>长</s><s80,6480>出</s><s48,1204>拉</s><s96,4692>也</s><s0,3804>

</s><s0,0></s><s32,8488>，</s><s64,8148>要</s><s64,9040>们</s><s0,7484>能</s><s56,28>吧</s><s48,1556>是</s><s32,468>的</s><s16,8544>夫</s><s32,7936>敢</s><s16,312>张</s><s64,3212>我</s><s48,4692>渐</s><s0,7060>…</s><s88,5016>你</s><s64,4776>且</s><s16,3592>得</s><s0,5128>求</s><s96,9420>他</s><s96,6240>岁</s><s96,8544>该</s><s80,9264>他</s><s96,6692>我</s><s80,6904>。</s><s64,7456>得</s><s64,184>，</s><s48,6156>那</s><s16,1260>声</s><s92,6368>一</s><s16,6904>不</s><s96,8984>管</s><s80,2588>现</s><s16,2772>意</s><s16,7556>　</s><s80,3268>仙</s><s48,3564>不</s><s16,7316>身</s><s0,1868>

</s><s70,6948>…</s><s0,1824>”</s><s32,8672>冻</s><s0,4524>是</s><s24,1344>年</s><s32,3156>外</s><s16,5860>尔</s><s88,1048>来</s><s99,8064>都</s><s48,340>上</s><s48,7372>，</s><s32,9096>虽</s><s16,6480>的</s><s32,2588>么</s><s64,3592>资</s><s0,5016>逝</s><s0,6072>，</s><s64,2744>利</s><s48,5296>他</s><s96,5776>去</s><s96,284>在</s><s0,440>　</s><s96,212>了</s><s64,8092>室</s><s48,3536>倒</s><s96,8644>就</s><s80,2136>下</s><s0,5184>斯</s><s96,6424>妈</s><s101,5608>a</s><s0,6044>，</s><s16,5156>时</s><s80,8092>里</s><s48,2208>莎</s><s0,184>嗯</s><s64,2716>，</s><s48,7908>测</s><s80,6156>次</s><s48,6396>尼</s><s96,8360>不</s><s96,1176>，</s><s80,5296>的</s><s48,1372>岁</s><s0,3916>生</s><s64,1400>了</s><s0,8884>异</s><s48,3860>儿</s><s0,1896></s><s48,8644>个</s><s80,4580>去</s><s16,2108>种</s><s24,1048>来</s><s48,9124>有</s><s0,56>应</s><s32,964>尔</s><s16,6044>可</s><s32,5296>持</s><s40,1048>，</s><s80,7512>。</s><s0,5044>的</s><s32,5692>，</s><s16,4060>　</s><s80,4116>“</s><s80,212>去</s><s80,5692>丈</s><s0,5608>

</s><s0,8036>　</s><s96,6480>去</s><s32,7640>飞</s><s32,6820>紧</s><s48,2236>的</s><s16,2588>什</s><s80,3988>漠</s><s80,340>正</s><s64,7160>但</s><s96,1740>淡</s><s80,1204>她</s><s96,3620>闻</s><s32,4608>陪</s><s96,4776>了</s><s16,2008>的</s><s32,6452>去</s><s80,4748>你</s><s34,3128>y</s><s0,680>品</s><s48,8744>可</s><s48,84>姥</s><s48,7428>的</s><s64,8544>今</s><s16,6312>　</s><s80,7428>人</s><s96,9152>，</s><s40,6948>那</s><s96,2944>一</s><s96,7752>母</s><s41,7724>我</s><s0,6536>开</s><s64,1176>过</s><s80,1640>。</s><s48,4088>里</s><s64,7344>夜</s><s64,496>这</s><s32,4412>说</s><s96,7032>也</s><s0,4636>所</s><s0,8928>　</s><s80,2108>，</s><s80,84>说</s><s96,1020>说</s><s16,5536>，</s><s96,8204>，</s><s48,4172>，</s><s48,3988>是</s><s80,8856>种</s><s0,2944>

</s><s16,2744>中</s><s16,6664>无</s><s96,7400>古</s><s28,7060>”</s><s96,1612>是</s><s16,8956>可</s><s32,5988>且</s><s72,2972>母</s><s32,708>的</s><s64,7316>的</s><s16,3988>，</s><s96,680>势</s><s32,9420>义</s><s96,56>你</s><s32,4860>去</s><s16,1796>十</s><s16,4496>的</s><s16,7584>柔</s><s32,2376>但</s><s0,1684>

</s><s16,3732>已</s><s32,7132>：</s><s32,2404>终</s><s48,5268>一</s><s80,5424>，</s><s0,8700>？</s><s16,892>怜</s><s80,8644>人</s><s80,5268>交</s><s48,440>语</s><s96,7104>柔</s><s80,1020>手</s><s96,4496>夫</s><s96,9320>笑</s><s80,3324>…</s><s96,3564></s><s0,3760>的</s><s80,156>只</s><s80,4060>碧</s><s48,9096>然</s><s48,5720>再</s><s48,4636>纳</s><s64,2616>”</s><s32,3492>“</s><s48,8984>相</s><s32,4440>初</s><s32,8204>秘</s><s16,7696>到</s><s0,3000>？</s><s64,2900>亲</s><s0,5960>

</s><s64,2504>到</s><s80,4988>闪</s><s64,1868>尔</s><s80,7908>但</s><s16,2292>最</s><s0,7556>

</s><s32,524>忽</s><s48,9236>意</s><s0,7908>了</s><s16,7104>　</s><s96,736>语</s><s0,2164>。</s><s16,3888>是</s><s0,3592>语</s><s64,7428>老</s><s64,4440>尼</s><s48,2844>莎</s><s88,7004>死</s><s32,3860>女</s><s16,680>，</s><s32,2744>的</s><s32,340>边</s><s16,2348>我</s><s64,5128>克</s><s80,9124>跳</s><s0,4608>远</s><s0,580>子</s><s64,5212>救</s><s0,7584>温</s><s80,5776>出</s><s16,6424>交</s><s80,6340>，</s><s32,3804>但</s><s80,312>玻</s><s16,5804>我</s><s0,3704>极</s><s56,936>来</s><s80,792>了</s><s96,3648>己</s><s48,4960>有</s><s80,6720>让</s><s0,8388>寒</s><s48,764>里</s><s64,5396>救</s><s80,2688>为</s><s32,5072>脏</s><s0,5368>

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